I know you well, and I'm not buying that you really care that much about how other people see you. You get too much done to consider yourself a procrastinator. You might push off things you really would rather not do for things you want to do, but not a procrastinator. You tell me to be kind to myself, take your own advice (if what you wrote is in fact how you really feel).
I think procrastination is a signal of our values. When something is really important and possible, it gets done, no matter how tedious and unpleasant. The trouble comes when we don't (or aren't allowed to) honor to our lack of motivation and see it for the meaningful signpost that it is.
I know you well, and I'm not buying that you really care that much about how other people see you. You get too much done to consider yourself a procrastinator. You might push off things you really would rather not do for things you want to do, but not a procrastinator. You tell me to be kind to myself, take your own advice (if what you wrote is in fact how you really feel).
I think procrastination is a signal of our values. When something is really important and possible, it gets done, no matter how tedious and unpleasant. The trouble comes when we don't (or aren't allowed to) honor to our lack of motivation and see it for the meaningful signpost that it is.
“Things are not optimal when my life has been drained of delight and wonder.” Thank you for writing this. I needed to read it.